Hurrah!!! This week the scale started to move again after a 4 month plateau. I sat at 207 pounds since October. I was petrified that this could be where I would end. I wavered in my decisions about eating and whether it was worth it to stick so closely to what the expectations were about food after surgery if I was still going to be over 200 pounds. I fought about exercise and wondered if it was worth it if I was going to sit at 207 pounds. The worst was when I read in Oprah magazine about a woman who was just starting her weight loss journey and felt obese at 212 pounds.
I thought I was pretty skinny at 207 because I had lost 127 pounds to get there. The article was hard because it took all the positive I felt and flipped it to the, see, you are still fat thought. Even Dan couldn't snap me out of it and I wasn't enjoying his answers as they were not completely filled with confidence about me the way they used to be before the surgery. (In his defense, I am sure my doubts were wearing him down)
This week though the scale started to move again. I had been told and read often that I was probably just on a plateau because of the amount of initial loss I had had so quickly but 4 months is a long time to believe in for me. Anyway, it is moving and Friday I hit 198 pounds. What a relief!! Oh the joy I felt to get below 200 pounds. It all feels possible again. I will make my goal. I know it...getting under 200 pounds was another milestone and I am thrilled that I stuck with the program.
I am joining a new workout group Monday called Strong Women...they do cardio 3 days a week and cicuit training 2 days a week. I am excited and happy to say that positive affirmation every day on my way to work out. Where are you going? I am going to Strong Women. Which I am! I was, am and will be a strong woman because I come from a line of these women in my family. I am thankful for that strength and determination. I am thankful for the doubts, too because they make me look at myself and I find things I can change and tweak to renew my positive thoughts. The media does not do that for us. That is why it has to come from within.
